change of season.

1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
realized that sometimes, you just have to fight for what you want.

2. Did you keep your new years resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
waste of time.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
darc did. that’s about it.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

nay.

5. What countries did you visit?
bahamas. states (vegas).

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
a job that i enjoy.

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
september 5th. new beginnings.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
realizing i have to do what makes *me* happy.

9. What was your biggest failure?
putting up with a job a lot longer than i should have.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
spent xmas and the weekend after it sick. that’s about it.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
things for my new habit of baking.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
adam’s.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed, and disgusted?
most people generally.

14. Where did most of your money go?
shopping. shopping shopping shopping. clothes and michael’s mostly.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
foreseeing my wonderful future.

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
not too sure.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? definitely happier.
b) thinner or fatter? definitely thinner.
c) richer or poorer? richer.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
spent more time with friends.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
sitting around the house so much.

20. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?
spent it with my man. we were in bed promptly at 12:01.

21. Did you fall in love in 2008?
indeed i did. head over heels.

22. How many one-night stands?
nada.

23. What was your favourite TV program?
i have a new-found appreciation for two & a half men.

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
not really.

25. What was the best book you read?
quite a few.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
nothing overly new and exciting. new matt good

27. What did you want and get?
adam. and i got him.

28. What did you want and not get?
to see katy happy. truly and utterly happy.

29. What was your favourite film of this year?
sex and the city.

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i turned 26 and adam took me out for dinner.

31.What one thing would have made your year measurably more satisfying?
nothing. 2008 was a good year for me.

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
comfy. i like to be comfy. especially in the shoe department.

33. What kept you sane?
the wife. she always keeps me sane. thank god for her.

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
no one in particular.

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
nothing much. was glad to see obama voted in.

36. Who did you miss?
no one really.

37. Who was the best new person you met?
no one really that exciting. it was cool to meet my cousin from australia.

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.

fight for what you know in your heart of hearts is right.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
change of season.

all you need is love.

it’s that time of year once again. i feel like i just wrote my year in review. time to write another. my, how time flies the older you get. a tad unnerving.

this year has been a roller-coaster of emotions. so many ups, so many downs. but the year is ending on a high note, and for that i am thankful. those who matter know what that all means, and that’s all that needs to be said.

i learned a lot about love this year. i learned that fighting for something, or someone, you believe in is always worth it. sometimes it works out, sometimes it doesn’t. in the end, you learn something about yourself.

i learned that love is worth fighting for. i also learned that my happiness is worth fighting for.

2008 was a year that i can honestly say i am glad to leave behind. although things turned out fantastically towards the end, it was rather tumultuous. that is something i can do without. i look forward to 2009 and the many happy times it will bring.

i hope 2009 brings forth the well-wishes to my family and friends that i had hoped many previous years would bring. it’s time for a change.  it’s time for everyone to be happy. i hope that some people find themselves and learn what it is that makes them truly happy. i hope that some people can find the love that they deserve. i hope that others learn that love is the most important thing at the end of the day. love for yourself, love for others, and the realization that ultimately, your happiness is what matters most.

life is too short. make 2009 the year to find your true happiness.

happiness is a warm gun.

i’m not happy. but i am. but i’m not.

the part of me that is unhappy far supercedes the part of me that is.

work is killing me, one day at a time. i’m so unhappy here. there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but that light gets smaller and smaller as there is not yet a replacement for me. and i cannot leave my mother high and dry without training my replacement. i’d like to count down the days, but i don’t know the end.

i’m happy with everything else in my life. but work is dragging me down. i’m so sick of this. i can’t stand it anymore. i can’t wake up in the morning. i am late every day. i bitch at everyone and to everyone all day long. it’s a drain on me and everyone around me. it’s a drain on my co-workers as well as on my friends. work has sucked the life out of me and in turn, i am sucking the life out of everyone and everything around me.

this is not the real me. i need to find my old self again. i just wish that could happen now, right now.

affirmation.

i’m sick of working in an office. it makes me lethargic and lazy. the perks are the internet access. and the fact that i can wear jeans. and leave my facial piercing in. but that’s just this office. that would change drastically in any other office.

i think it’s time to take a pay-cut and do something i actually enjoy. i want to work with kids again. which is why i’m applying at the ymca. there’s a new one opening on the mountain. katy has applied for a job there. so it would be pretty awesome to have us both working at the same location.

working with kids would also require me to get off my lazy butt and get active again.

i need to do something i enjoy, something that makes me want to get out of bed in the morning.

i have this grand picture of myself as a twenty-something professional. but i don’t need to be that. sometimes it’s just much more enjoyable to wear yoga pants to work and climb on a playground with a group of kids. hearing the laughter of a child is so much more rewarding than lack of recognition from an arrogant boss.

my lack of enjoyment with my current job is dragging me down. my lack of enjoyment during the work-week is affecting other areas of my life. it’s turning me into a miserable person, and that’s not how i am by nature. it’s time to enjoy my days again.

Domestic Goddess.

is it wrong that i enjoy being domestic? does that strip me of the feminist status i cling to so dearly?

i like to cook, but i’m not very good at it. but i want to get better. i don’t want to fear for my own life and the lives of those who i force to eat my food.

i don’t like to clean. but i have become a much tidier person. i don’t like crap laying around everywhere. and i don’t like a dirty toilet.

i enjoy preparing meals while my man-friend is hard at work on his computer. i long to one day be the perfect mother (or at least try to, because every mother inevitably fucks up their children somehow).

i wonder if this makes me more of a feminist because i know what i want to do, or less of one because it involves cooking and taking care of my man.